Why do we blame ourselves? Why do we feel it's our fault that we were betrayed? In my opinion I believe it's what we are accustomed to doing. I have met so many women and men that all have blamed themselves, but have discovered that their lives has prepped them to accept the blame. Our … Continue reading Raised to be Betrayed…..
I have been writing my life story for years....the abuse, the trauma, life on the streets and my total commitment to my God during it all. People would often ask me how I keep my faith, how do I keep rolling with the punches? While writing my story I wanted to paint a picture to … Continue reading Accepting God’s Challenge for the Greater Good
The Nasties have taken over our house and not one of us has had more then 12 hours of peace within our body since we came back from Disney. So, besides cleaning up puke, disinfecting and making boat loads of chicken noodle soup I have been weeding through the junk in our house. Even though … Continue reading Getting Rid of Trauma…One Chatchke at a Time
When it came out that my Husband had a sex addiction I was obviously hurt because I was his Wife and this was the ultimate betrayal. But, I also was hurt because I am a victim of sexual abuse. From the time I was 3 years old until I was out of Foster Care at … Continue reading Sweaty Crotch…..
The very first thing that my Husband did for me after all the secrets were out on the table was to create safety. It was natural to him thankfully and after we started therapy just a few weeks later we realized we were already doing some of the things that they were suggesting. So, how … Continue reading Creating Safety for Your Spouse to Recover Too
So, I was thinking I could share a little bit about my childhood and growing up. Just so you know a little about my past Trauma. Instead of going once upon a time and giving you a play-by-play from diapers to now I'll just touch on a few major times in my life. Today I'll … Continue reading She Put the Pillow Over My Face…..
How does a Trigger feel? Well, I can tell you because I'm in the middle of one right now!!! I'm so upset and angry at myself, at the world and everything in between. Today my Husband was supposed to do something with our kids. And the two youngest had no desire to do so. Our … Continue reading Today’s Trigger brought to You by Sex Addiction……..
Last night I went to our Christian 12 step meeting.....Celebrate Recovery. We have been going for a few months now, and honestly I've been pretty quiet during the share time. I long for the first hour of the meeting each week because it's worship singing, scripture reading and every week they rotate between someone sharing … Continue reading Tending to My Garden……
What have I been up to lately? Well, coming back from a 10 day vacation almost makes me feel like I need another vacation from my vacation. I've come down with an awful deep cough. It's so deep I pee myself almost every time I cough.....I'm literally writing this in the bathroom, because I'm giving … Continue reading The Deep and then the Deeper
What did you do when you were a little kid and was sad, scared, hurt, overwhelmed, confused, embarrassed or ashamed? I ate and cut myself and my Husband watched porn and masturbated. It's crazy to think back and really look at what you did as a child for comfort. I had a crazy childhood filled … Continue reading The Perfect Storm for Addiction